BELOW YOU WILL FIND A LINEUP OF ALL MY MUSIC RELEASES TO DATE. I DO MY BEST TO KEEP THIIS PAGE CURRENT. 

AFTER SAYING I DO MY BEST TO KEEP THIS PAGE CURRENT OF COURSE EVERYTHING CHANGED!

I CURRENTLY DISTRIBUTE SOME OF MY MUSIC

TRACKS ARE THANKFULLY AVAILABLE WHERE EVER DIGITAL MUSIC IS AVAILABLE

I BEGAN DISTRIBUTING A MIXTURE OF SPOKEN WORD WORKS IN 2016

ADMITTEDLY I HAD NO CLUE WHAT I WAS DOING AS I RECORDED ALL THE WORKS ON A LAPTOP VOICE RECORDER

IT WAS NEW TO ME TO CONVERT THEM TO MP3 AND WAV FILES

NATURALLY UNINTENTIONAL MISTAKES WERE MADE IN THE BEGINNING WHEN I WAS LEARNING DISTRIBUTION, AND TRYING TO REDISCOVER MY OWN ABILITY AS MANY OF MY WORKS AND ABILITY TO FUNCTION CLEARLY AND COHESIVELY WAS STILL STEEPED IN ADVERSE EXPERIENCES, AND PERCEPTIONS.

FROM ABOUT THE 01/08/2022-20/08/2022 CHANGES ESPECIALLY IN THE AREA OF MY ORIGINAL WORKS SUCH AS BEHIND THE SCENES OF FREEDOM ALBUM AND ENOUGH ALBUM WHCH ARE NOW BOTH PICTURE FILM SHORTS ON YOU TUBE HAD TO BE MADE.

 

I HAD TAKEN DOWN MY ORIGINAL ALBUM THEN ATTEMPTED TO RE-RELEASE IT BUT SOME OF THE COMPOSITIONS IN PARTS WERE PURE SPOKEN WORD WITHOUT ANY MUSICAL ELEMENTS TO THEM. I WAS NOT YET READY TO CHANGE THAT. EVEN THOUGH  IT WAS BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION MUSICAL ELEMENTS ARE A REQUIREMENT I HADN'T BEEN AWARE OF THAT. SO, I REMOVED MANY OF MY WORKS WHICH WERE NOT FULLY COMPLIANT WITH CURRENT DISTRIBUTION REQUIREMENTS.

IF THAT WASN'T ENOUGH I THEN THOUGHT IT MIGHT BE A GOOD IDEA TO MAKE ALBUMS OUT OF MY MONOLOGUES, AND SPOKEN WORD WHICH I STYLED INTO A PODCAST STYLE RADIO THEATRE SHOWS.....NO....NOOOOO....THAT WAS NOT HAPPENING EITHER.

IN FACT THERE WAS AN INDICATION THERE WHICH ALMOST MEANT I SHOULD NOT DISTRIBUTE AT ALL! UNTIL I TOOK MATTERS IN MY OWN HANDS BY STATING I NEEDED TO MAKE FURTHER CHANGES NOT TO DISRESPECT REQUESTS BUT BECAUSE MY LATEST SUBSCRIPTION IS NEW.

AFTER THAT I HAD TO REALISE THE BEAUTY OF KEEPING SOME OF MY WORKS EXCLUSIVELY WELL.....AT LEAST FOR NOW....TO MY WEBSITE.

I REALISED SO MANY UNINTENTIONAL MISTAKES WERE MADE IN THE BEGINNING.

IF NOTHING ELSE THE MONTH OF AUGUST 2022 HAS ALLOWED ME TO REALISE HOW FAR I HAVE COME IN MAKING IT BACK TO MY FIRST IDEA OF A CAREER AND THAT WAS TO BE IN MUSIC.

HOWEVER, LIKE MOST ARTISTS I REMAIN BESET BY CHALLENGES. I BEGAN RECEIVING CURATOR PLAYLISTS PROMOTIONS WHICH I WAS ONLY JUST LEARNING ABOUT.

THE PEOPLE THAT APPROACHED SAID WHAT THEY DO IS ORGANIC, AND IT SEEMED SO, AND FOR A VERY SHORT PERIOD OF TIME I INVESTED NOT REALISING THAT COULD POTENTIALLY PUT ALL MY PROJECTS AT RISK IF ACTIVITY IS DEEMED AS FRADULENT. TO BE HONEST INITIALLY I THOUGHT THIS WAS THE SAME AS INVITES FROM PITCH LISTS.

WHEN ALREADY DISTRESSED TO HAVE TO DO ONE MORE THING TO GET HEARD OR BE SUCCESSFUL IS DISTRESSING ENOUGH.

LET ALONE TO HAVE TO COMPETE TO BE CHOSEN AFTER HOW MUCH OF YOUR LIFE AND MONEY YOU HAVE ALREADY INVESTED. 

WITH MY ENERGY FEELING TORN AND SHREDDED FINALLY, I GET TO THE HEAD SPACE OF BEING ABLE TO RETHINK EVERYTHING I THOUGHT MAY WORK OR WHICH IS BILLED AS GOING TO WORK. 

 

STILL ALL A FORM OF THREAT TO MAKING A LIVING AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED!

 

I HAVE A LOT OF EXPERIENCE HAVING COME FROM A BACK DROP OF EARLY LIFE ABUSES, AND BEING ON THE RECEIVING  END OF CONTINUUMS SUCH AS STALKING BEHAVIOURS AND AT TIMES LIKE WITH ALOT OF PEOPLE I FIND THE CONTINUAL THREAT TO LIVELIHOOD COSTLY, AND SO DISTRESSING.

I FINALLY CAME ACROSS AN ARTICLE WHICH ACTUALLY MADE SENSE EXPLAINING FRAUDULENT STREAMING. I HAD NOT UNDERSTOOD THE PROBLEM FULLY UNTIL I FOUND THAT ARTICLE, ONLY RECENTLY.

THING IS GETTING MY MUSIC OUT IN FRONT OF PEOPLE WHERE I COULD REMAIN RELATIVELY REMOTE REALLY HELPED ME.

I PERSONALLY DO NOT THINK DISTRIBUTION SHOULD BE OUT THERE WITHOUT THAT TYPE PROMOTION, AND PUSH I RECEIVED.

I THINK SOMETIMES ALOT IS BILLED AS PROMOTIONAL THAT DOES NOT HAPPEN. WHICH CAN ALSO LEAVE YOU FEELING DEFRAUDED.

INDEPENDENT ARTIST ARE OFTEN ALSO FULL TIME WORKERS. ALOT IN DIFFICULT CIRCUMSTANCES  WHO NEED PEOPLE TO DO WHAT THEY SAY THEY ARE GOING TO DO. 

IT IS WORTH BUDGETING FOR A LITTLE PUSH OUT IN MY EXPERIENCE.

NOT EVERY ARTIST IS ABLE BODIED OR SOCIALLY ADEPT AT LIVE PERFORMANCES ETC TO RECEIVE THE REWARD THAT IS OR CAN BE. SOME ARTIST ARE NOT ADEPT AT  SOCIALISING IN GENERAL. NOT EVERYONE CAN FIX THAT SADLY ENOUGH.

 

THERE IS SO MUCH HATRED AT TIMES FOR ARTIST.

AFTER MY RECENT EXPERIENCES IT MADE ME REALISE THE DIFFERENT ROUTES HATERS USE TO DELIBERATELY XPLOIT OR DESTROY AN ARTIST AND THE AREA OF PROMOTION SEEMS TO BE ONE OF THE MORE POPULAR AREAS FOR LIARS ETC.

BUT IT IS VERY IMPORTANT TO RECOGNISE THOSE WHO USE LISTS TO UNFAIRLY TARGET THE INDUSTRY TO OBTAIN LARGE SUMS OF MONEY VERY UNSCRUPULOUSLY OR EVEN DANGEROUSLY. I RECKON YOU WILL ALSO FIND STALKERS AMONG THEM.

ATTACKING BUSINESSES AND INDIVIDUALS INTENT ON DESTRUCTION.

POTENTIALLY MAKING THINGS DANGEROUS FOR ALL CONCERNED WHO ARE INTENTIONAL ABOUT DOING GOOD.

TO BE HONEST FROM THE SITUATION I WAS IN I HAD NO CONFIDENCE OR ENERGY TO PUSH MYSELF. I THOUGHT I NEEDED AN ORGANIC EXPERIENCE. I TEND TO FIT INTO THE ALTERNATIVE GENRE. IT WAS NICE TO FINALLY SEE A PLACE WHERE MY MUSIC COULD FIT.

I FUND MY LIFE AS A LONG DISTANCE DRIVER. WHICH CAN MEAN VERY LONG HOURS JUST WORKING. NOT INCLUDING ANY COMMUTE TIMES. I WAS BEING TARGETED INTENSELY FROM ABOUT 2018 UNTIL 2020 ANYTIME I NEEDED TO DRIVE TO GO ANYWHERE.

FROM 2021 TO 2022 TARGETERS, AND STALKERS WITH THREATENING TYPES OF BEHAVIOURS SEEMED HELL BENT ON INTENSIFING THEIR ANTICS, AROUND ME JUST AS I WAS TRYING TO MAKE A LIVING.

WHICH SAYS ENOUGH IN AND OF ITSELF.

I DECIDED THIS YEAR TO REALLY TRY AND CHANGE AND IMPROVE MY MUSICAL CONTENT AND AREA OF BUSINESS, LEARNING MYSELF FIRST BEFORE OTHERS.

THIS LED TO ME RELEASING AS MUCH MUSIC AS POSSIBLE. WHICH MEANS TO ME I HAVE TO ABLE TO BE FLEXIBLE. NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT THAT MAYBE FOR ME. WHICH MIGHT ALSO MEAN BEING ABLE TO CHANGE. LET GO. BEING ABLE TO CHANGE, LET GO, OR EVEN ACCEPT BEING THROWN OUT. ESPECIALLY, AFTER MY CHOICE OF PROMOTION. THE PROMOTOR AT THE DOOR HAS NOW BECOME A CERTAIN TYPE OF PLAYLIST CREATOR, MAYBE?

I AM NOT INTERESTED IN COMOTION AROUND WHAT I DO. I RESPECT WE ALL HAVE OUR OPINIONS ABOUT EACH OTHER. ALL BUSINESSES NEED A SPACE TO BEGIN, GROW, PIVOT, START AGAIN, OR DEVELOP INTO BECOMING MUCH STRONGER. 

I HAD FROM THE VERY BEGINNING IN THE MIDST OF CREATING MY FIRST TWO LARGE ALBUMS WONDERED IF I COULD MAKE MUCH MORE OF THEM. I HAD NO INTENTION OF NOT BEING COMPLAINT WITH GUIDELINES OR REQUIREMENTS.

HOWEVER, MUCH OF MY EARLY WORKS CONTINUALLY INSPIRE ME SO THEIR CHANGES ARE NOW EMERGING.

AS MENTIONED I HAVE BEEN AFFECTED BY THE BEHAVIOURS SUCH AS STALKING. IT IS NOT THE POSITION I WANTED TO BE IN.

A CREATIVE SOLUTION BELIEVE IT OR NOT BECAME PART OF A PROTECTIVE SOLUTION.

AS AN EXPERIENCE I COULD MAKE VISUAL TO HOPEFULLY PROMOTE A DEEPER INSIGHT INTO.

 

WHEN THE CONNECTION BETWEEN PEOPLE IS ABUSE. IF YOUR ARE THE RECEIVER OVER A LONG PERIOD OF TIME. IF YOU DO NOT GET THE TYPE OF SUPPORT YOU SPECIFICALLY NEED. OR HAVE NO SUPPORT.

IT IS EASY TO BE SO DISTRACTED BY YEARS OF A STALKER AND THE VARYING AMOUNT OF INCIDENTS A STALKER, OR EACH DIFFERENT STALKERS CAN OBSESSIVELY CREATE.

YOU CAN BE LEFT WITH LITTLE OR NO ENERGY FOR YOURSELF. OR WORSE NO ABILITY TO THINK FOR YOURSELF. MAYBE EVEN WORSE THAN THAT IS NOT EVEN BEING ABLE TO RECOGNISE YOUR OWN SELF AS THAT. LET ALONE ALL THE DIFFERENT LEVELS AND TYPES OF VIOLENCE YOU WILL BE FORCED TO GO THROUGH IF YOU EVEN CAN RECOGNISE THAT IS WHAT YOU ARE ALSO FORCED TO SUFFER FROM.

IT IS EASY TO SEE HOW UNSCRUPULOUS NON-ORGANIC PLAYLIST CAN TARGET YOU AND SNAG YOU INTO RISKING EVERY PROJECT YOU HAVE EVER BUILT.

ESPECIALLY WHEN AN ARTIST IS STRUGGLING WITH THE OVERWHELM, SELF-ESTEEM, SELF-CONFIDENCE ISSUES OVER HOW LONG IT CAN TAKE WHILST TRYING TO MAKE PROJECTS PROFTITABLE.

I REALISED THIS YEAR HOW EASY IT IS TO GET POTENTIALLY MANIPULATED JUST FOR THE SAKE OF STREAMING OR POTENTIAL SALES.

AS FAR AS I WAS AWARE I HAD NOT DONE ANYTHING WRONG AS MY PPARTNERING WAS CONNECTED TO A WELL KNOWN PLATFORM. 

 

THE EXPERIENCE AND THE WORRY HAS NOW MADE ME MORE AWARE OF THE AREAS THAT CAN POTENTIALLY AFFECT POSSIBLE  NEGATIVE CHANGES ATTEMPTING TO APPEAR AS A POSTIVE THING.

 

CHANGES WERE MUCH NEEDED THE MOMENT A CREATIVE SOLUTION BECAME PART OF PROTECTIVE SOLUTION TO A CERTAIN EXTENT. DUE TO HEALTH ISSUES. 

WHERE PLATFORMS AND CHANNEL'S  MAY NEED A CERTAIN AESTHETIC, OR GENRE TO LOOK GOOD OR MAKE A PROFIT. I HAVE LONG REALISED A MEANINGFUL BUT MAYBE LESS ATTRACTIVE UNPOPULAR WORKS JUST MAY NOT BE A FIT FOR EVERYBODY.

 

IT WAS GOOD TO BE ABLE LET GO.

IT REMOVED SO MUCH STALE ENERGY FROM WITHIN ME.

EVEN IN A SPLIT SECOND OF FEELING LIKE I NEEDED TO DEFEND MY SUBSCRIPTION OR HAVING TO DEAL WITH DECISIONS BEING MADE ABOUT MY WORK BROKE ME OPEN A LITTLE SOONER THAN I EXPECTED.

YET TO MY SHOCK, SURPRISE, AND RELIEF I REALISED I WAS CONFIDENT ENOUGH. I HAD GROWN.

I ALMOST COULD NOT BELIEVE IT.

I WANTED TO SHIFT. I HAD BEEN RESTLESS FOR YEARS BUT COULD NOT FIND THE WAY, OR WAYS OUT I NEEDED, AND THERE IT WAS IN...NO!

I AM SO GRATEFUL

I AM SO GLAD

GOING FORWARD WITH MUSIC IS TERRIFYING FOR ME. BECAUSE HOW AM I REALLY GOING TO MAKE IT WORK?

  BUT I SHALL JUST BECAUSE I LOVE IT SO MUCH, AND I AM HAPPY AND WILLING TO KEEP LEARNING ALL THE TIME NO MATTER HOW RESISTANT I MAYBE AT FIRST. OR HOW HARD OR INCONVENIENT THAT CAN BE AT TIMES. 

WHEN IT COMES TO FINDING EVEN MORE CONFIDENCE TO PROMOTE MYSELF WHICH I REALLY DID NOT KNOW HOW TO FIND FOR A VERY LONG TIME

I REALISE NOW VARIETY CONTINUES TO BE THE SPICE OF LIFE. 

THERE ARE A TON OF THINGS I HAVE NOT DONE OR EXPLORED IN RELATION TO GETTING MY MUSIC OUT THERE, HEARD, AND PROMOTED

I HAPPEN NOT TO BE A ONE POINT FOCUS ARTIST OR BUSINESS PERSON THOUGH I DO ADAPT A ONE POINT FOCUS IN VARYING AREAS WHEN THINGS NEED TO GET DONE.

THERE IS SO MUCH SCOPE, SCALE AND OPPORTUNITY IN RECOGNISING WHAT YOU HAVE NOT DONE YET WHICH BEAUTIFULLY OPENS UP HOW MUCH MORE THERE IS TO EXPLORE!

THANKS BE TO GOD FROM WHOM ALL OF MY BLESSINGS FLOW!

BEING UNREADY FOR CHANGE CAN ALSO LEAD YOU INTO GETTING STARTED IN A DIRECTIONS YOU MAY NEVER HAVE THOUGHT WOULD WORK FOR YOU, OR BE POSSIBLE.

I KNOW I HAVE BEEN BLINKERED IN THE DISTRACTION OF ABUSE THE LEARNING CURVES OF ILLNESS AND EVERYTHING ELSE I CANNOT NEGOTIATE WELL AT THIS TIME!

I REALISE THERE MAY AT TIMES BE NOTHING MORE GOING ON IN LIFE DURING HARD OR BAD TIMES, OR GOOD TIMES  THAN YOUR BLESSINGS REMINDING YOU THAT THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT. ESPECIALLY AMONGST ALL THE UNTHINKABLE AND UNIMAGINABLE!

 

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR STOPPING BY AND READING AND LISTENING TO MY WORKS

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MUCH APPRECIATED

MANY THANKS

 

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