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It is now April 2020 already give thanks!

When the world

When Life

calls us all to our notice or to pay attention

Even if as nations we collective go through experiencing the same situations and circumstances

there are just not enough words of comfort for all those who have lost their loved ones 

Corona virus sadly has seen many souls return home from this earth

Even though I do not have the words of wisdom or comfort at this time for the pain and suffering of all those who are in physical pain as a result of the corona Virus. I just without offence wanted to say i pray and hope you all be strong and well again. 

 

Also, I just wanted  to acknowledge and give a word of gratitude and thanks to everyone who is working tirelessly on the front line of this epidemic. Thank You!  Thank you! Thank you!

my words are not correct

I am sorry if my wording not being correct offends you!

The whole world feels like it is in a global reset

the whole world feels like it is in a global mindset reset

So quickly so many taken

So much changes

So instantly the financial impact

Global mind reset!

In loving memory of all those who returned to their souls

May you soar beyond your wildest dreams and may all who remain do the same!

Take care all and everyone!

Please follow the advice in this link to stay safe: https://www.gov.uk/government/collections/coronavirus-covid-19-list-of-guidance

natural flowism

a freedom of being! 

 

 

 

Miracles or Not?  

Your stalker is not just your stalker
I do believe I have inherited those that stalk other people sadly just as other people have probably inherited mine
That is not the way I want life to be at all!
Which is why I keep writing in increments my feelings thoughts and if any, new personal takes and findings on my ongoing experiences through the ongoing problem.
Its a very concerning way to live or feel you have to do things. I believe in myself and what i am trying to achieve. But it is concerning if you dare question how you might be seen in the eyes of others. In fact I don't bother and thankfully have gotten to the stage where I don't feel like I care anymore and that is not out of the intention of wickedness or with the intention to be cruel to anybody!
The Strength needed to fight and find Justice!
Just don't feel like I have it probably maybe I may have never needed despite all that has gone on!
Where do I trust?
What do I trust?
Who do I trust is not worth asking because the answer is no one!
Who is well enough produce a better result?
Seen as someone to continually target by those who have no gauge care recognition or perception of how what they set up would make someone who has done nothing more than cope and survive what has been thrown at them feel. The contradiction in my mind is to loathe the day I will need to pay into a system which currently supports those who want to see people pay cost for their behaviours! Behaviours they cannot stop suffering from or those they deliberately for cruelty sake continually use to control to abuse someone in power. Or to empower their own cruel wicked abusive ways.
In live make sure you have seen everything like it
Then you wont fall for the first unusual person you have seen
Here's a tale
Back in the day when immigration was in session she fell for him
She'd never seen anything like him
She curled her either side straightened the back and wore it straight down
She took care of the house he went out
She got beaten up when he got back and lived and loved with that because trauma was not known to be that back then!
But they always had a ready to entertain clean house!
An interracial hell made into like a happy haven!
Question is: does abuse stop....no that’s not it....hmmmm......hmmmm.......does crime......nah....let me think about how to rephrase this...what is the concoction that makes abuse stop if person in authority are in some way connected to a person who needs to report abuse or a crime or intended crime? I read some years ago the spouses of authority had been often disregarded if they dared to report being abused by personnel of high standing or otherwise in authority? If true and it no doubt is....how did the crime or abuse lessen? I want to know the ingredients of the potion that automatically wiped away the abuse or crime and made all the bruises and going psychological damage automatically disappear? Which miracle is it?
So...last year 02/2020 I finally caught trespassers on camera in my home Tresspass Intrusion in Progress
Days later local officers attended my messy home after I attended my local station. Now i don’t know that is connected. The culmination of which I was told “that’s you!”  ok so chin out it was more than a bite to deal with. But I just got on with it. I share many of my self healing journals of art poetry online in books I mentioned experience. Done, I’m happy to move on. Fast forward over a year later and I’m here “that’s you" frequently as it is part of colloquial Scottish  dialectic for want of a better way of putting things. Which often refers to something being done, finished, or over with? I leave a question mark because I’m sure there is a  better explanation.
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If someone accuses you of Being someone you are not or doing something you didn't. Authorities have made provision for complaints. But do you know, well you don’t be because  this is a  blog but then again depending on who reads this maybe you do. I felt that to complain would lead me back to the trap set many years ago, when antics around me forced me into complain due to concern not only for my self. As Mother I was about 2 years into Motherhood before we were attacked by relationship gone bad and I will now say an ongoing campaign of stalking has continued. Can you imagine the effect it has on children forced to grow up being stalked? There is always worse cases out there but this is hard difficult and bad too. It is very natural for kids to rebel or so it is said. However, domestic abuses can sadly see children struggling to cope with the horrendous circumstances that occur become hardened toward the very problem or person you are trying to avoid. A lot of that is how weak abusers can make a person. Using all kinds of techniques to distract and disorient the person’s they are abusing toward their abusive persuasive will or intention. For not reason most times other than jealous manipulative cruelty.
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When stalking or a stalker turned burglar can end up gaining so much access to your life despite your best efforts to stop or thwart them. You face constant criticism and complaints that whatever you say or do is tantamount to a complaint or telling off of others, when in fact it is the opposite. You are trying to get on with your life, and before someone suffering from the need to stalk despite their bravado that a stalker may not be able to see as such. You are trying to save lives not end them which is what happens when no one responds, or when no one responds properly. Having said that stalking can be incredibly complex to understand or deal with that may due to possible activity being varied therefore it may require more than one area of law to stop a stalker in their tracks or before they harm themselves or anyone else! But what happens when person's rich powerful or famous becomes sick or gets into the state of the need to stalk some who at the time maybe poorer that they living hand to mouth week by week, if that?  It is the most awful feeling to find you have someone who cannot see how to take back hold of their life from the obsession in their mind which might be due to some kind of malfunction in their brain which keeps their thoughts stuck or looping on this is you I need to restrict stop or control!
When I was in primary school SW6 I we learnt this game. Look at a person who has their back turned to you until they touch the place you would have been staring at! 1970’s. After the abuses I have faced especially  whilst driving I wonder how far long has that game come on and been developed?
For those that may read this blog if know this is: 
#LaviniaDeAyr
I am not a journalist or a member of the press!
I am a Self funded  Artist & Self- Healer and share my personal journey in a autobiographic way through creative writing music and many other art forms!
I fund my life By working as a UK Lorry Driver when and where there is work available time permitting!
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Unfortunately, recently since about 2018 I experienced an increase of abusive situation on the road. In the past week alone they were several more with one 3.5ton driver with non uk plates not driving by as usual seemed to be try to extract or attract some kind of attention, why that is I do not know? For those that do see me out on road please behave without distraction which includes: bike riders trying to lean into vehicle. Leaning back off bikes. Flashing lights deliberately in a destructive or deliberately obstructive manner. This abuse has gone on so long there have been times when at my wits end I have just driven with lights on full beam which believe it or not saw most abusers cower down! I do not understand your protest?
If any!
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I generally work for agencies who call the shots basically in every area of every booking. I can only go by what is said and what is offered as pay. At times when errors had been made I advised and returned monies immediately.
There is nothing more I can do than that but had just realised an area of misunderstanding which maybe being used as a reason to create retaliation?
When I can I write to express and heal myself once I began doing so it allowed me a greater insight I feel into the experience of being stalked and also the way oyhers respond!
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Preferred Contact:
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Lavinia De Ayr 
Also Lavinia De Ayr aged 56 just for those who keep getting me confused with someone else!

How much resources do stalkers use? 

Truths and Falsehoods

It costs to stalk someone doesn't it?
Not that I need to ask
It just stands to reason that you need resources to do anything in life
Even if you find yourself down and out and homeless you still are using some kind of resource 
Clothes
Cardboard box
Pavement street
Most of all your own human energy there is always something a human being has or needs from another human being whether we like to admit it to ourselves or anyone else or not!
Stalkers pay to stalk
Someone who feels compelled to turn up everyday around someone who may not even know them or had or has become so sickened by them they cannot even stand to havr them around, despite making it expressly clear they no longer want them in their lives but as a result the rejection triggered the other person into a psychotic level of needing to stay in that person’s life or remain in some kind of contact to that person which makes them pay in some way every day to annoy=stalk in some shape or form the person who turned them away!

 
Regardless of the trigger is a stalker pays. They invest money time and their life's energy in trying to control something which no longer exists!

Stalkers always pay!

A stalker is also some one who has become so sick or has no brain function which will let them know they are so sick that they automatically are MISusing all resources available to them?

Either way a stalker pays!

A stalker will always make a misguided investment?

True or False?

A stalkers perception of what is worth it is scared, blinkered, flawed? 
True or False?

Nothing a stalker decides to do adds up correctly?
True or False?

Always?

That is exactly what the illness leads to one way or the other whether that be time, money, or energy. It is also a debt forced upon who ever is being stalked as their energy can be forced to become misaligned their brain becomes de-activated by whosoever stalks them?


COARSE WORK part 1
A stalker is someone who could possibly be seen as someone who might automatically owes a debt owed to someone or everyone in society true or false? 
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Especially if found to be wilfully carrying out their antics especially if very rich and incredibly powerful and astute in how they continue to carry out what stalking activities they create and are doing? True or False?
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For some reason or the other there was an intense presence of a...how should I put it...It really felt like someone’s very jealous needing to want to stir up jealously toward themselves? 
It has been the most bizarre detail to witness, feel, deal with, dismiss or resolve!
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Seeing drivers twisting and contorting their bodies whilst driving to either look up at vehicle mirrors, cameras, driver or to pass on telepathic messages through an exposed area of the neck! Which is bizarre enough especially if directed toward one who is clearly an expressionist who can communicate in a very direct manner what would the need be? Years of guilt? Years of using and abusing some who never had any clue that it was you? All this time? Even though everybody else knew it was you, all this time later?
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Without a doubt some one like me would be seen as perfect fodder for anyone out to take advantage of anyone who shares so readily and so freely. Many people sick with the need to abuse often see freebies and as a way to get even more instead of Being grateful for what has already been gifted!
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COARSE WORK part 2
To stalk someone in real life is a dangerous game if Only seen as a game?!
To stalk someone is a costly and dangerous way if Only seen as a game that needs to be played and not as a serious clinical condition that needs an ongoing large investment to tackle and successfully bring to recovery, treatment, justice, and closure?
What chance does someone have in life if they never knew until it was almost too late that all their parents did by following all the correct guidelines by sending them to nursery, to school  meant they were actually sending their child into the hands of life long predators that would go on to capitalize on that child’s life and every decision and move that child made in life in every shape or form? Because who was really able to properly be checking back in the day that each an every child or person was safe when so many were left so broken after war? 
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During the many years of my life a stalkers have affected it still took me many years later to consider possible motives. Suppose the man who stalked my late Mother home during the early hours of the 60's thought somehow her work at a hospital had somehow affected him and his family?
Suppose variation on a theme of faces that each family has wasn’t true and their were 9 wicked midwives who were having a laugh deciding to send all the babies born in that week home with the wrong parents and have a laugh about it there after? Which left people like me believing they had been born and grown up in the wrong family? Given that birth certificates are registered and written up way after the event of a birth possible or not impossible? To have birth certificate signed off by the wrong innocently unsuspecting parents? Considering back in the day some babies were handed straight to a midwife and whisked away to further care while mom got some much needed rest?
 Whilst not wanting to cast dispersion on the profession it is some how now easy to see where it could all be so possible?
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It’s a horrible and awfully illness to stalk someone despite how glamorous and funny it could be made too look. It can leave in its productivity and malfunction so many left trying to heal from so many lies, deceit, rage, anger, defiance disorders, spite, and slights! 
But what is continuing to keep society constantly testing and putting people who are willing to speak out about the hell, cost, mental and emotional anguish, and adversity they are continually forced to live thought on a daily basis, what is it that is keeping society from attacking the messenger so to speak?
What would the cost of protesters, terrorist, or corruption look like if stalking was mentioned as being part of them all?
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Normalisation = Fear of Treatment! 

I was not but 00:37 into my journey along the M25 just prior to A40 M40 turn offs when a white volvo jeep-ish looking car  possibly lingered a bit then drove passed me. 
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I had slept earlier and had just had a reset power nap. I was doing fine. My energy was not ungrounded! But by the time I noticed this car I began feeling weird. By the time the jeep sped off toward London bound turn off I realised my energy was being pregnated with a drowsy feeling again!
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All that night for some reason almost every time I saw a 3.5ton van with a tail lift I almost fell asleep!
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What started out as randomly finding intruders trespassing into my home now looks like 2 stalkers I was not aware I had!
Something unsettled me deeply. I took the risk and turned the camera on myself and made a short film called: As Though My Life Doesn't Matter!
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A lorry with international plates passed me but I had long been suspicious the 2 stalkers that I caught on camera intruding into my home were possibly a UK based European lorry drivers?I just managed to catch sight of a very slim girl no longer driving artic but now in a 3.5ton but I could feel not only a gaze but as though a pin was being driven through my butt thro ugh everything inbetween toward my left thigh! Perverted it felt like.Out of shock pure shock I find my imagination jam packed with projective ideas to thwart this problem. Normally, that is not what I do. I never grew up with any exhaustive knowledge of the chakras or anything new age apart from learning about astrology...but with incidents of competitive anger any single drive now seems filled with deluded car driver and otherwise convinced there sending some kind message which generally unfathomable just like the recent trend of people driving past punching their mouths out,  ×what's that all about?
To be cont'd

Faces in the Crowd? 

I am so thankfully grateful and blessed to repent and surrender to the forgiveness purpose and power life is!
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Is the pre 60's stalker back?
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How many of our parents were stalked back in the day long before to stalk a person was properly recognised for what it is...parents who would have lived and died without ever realising the full effect of the danger they were potentially in, and the full extent that would have on generation after.generation? 
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For about 6 months clairaudiently or telepathically or whatever way you want to call it I have repetitively heard inside my ears "She's a nurse!" "She's a nurse!"
Well! Yes she was! My late Mother God Love and Bless her soul worked as a nurse. I distinctly remember mention of a man that used to follow her down the road in the early hours singing her name. Back then it sounded like an hilarious folk tale and tail!
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Waking up to calls about further fraud attempts on my account, something went off in my head which triggered a series of thoughts!
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I dare to include my thoughtfilled findings as the following: suppose a stalker goes on to become a killer intentionally or otherwise? (whisked off never to be seen again does not mean a successful audition!) Did that pre-70's stalker stop or carry on attacking us all as a family without any of us ever knowing how to understand why the root of ongoing problems had occurred?
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Recently, for the purpose of my own self healing I decided to make a distinction in my own mind about how and why my feeling thoughts and memory were or had becoming unwilling attached to certain people or the memory of them. It can be an incredibly painful exercise all around. But it can also help with detachment/feelings of abandment/re-alignment of self to attract who you really want in an all round healthy way. 

If a distinction can be made between who you essentially had to mix with like: people who were your parents people. People you had to go to school with live or work with it may help you make better relationship based on who you truly are rather than power other than yourself.
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 In really positive cases your parents friends school work church can all be really great jumping off points for life long mutually faithful loyal friendships or even relationships. But what happens when that is not the case because unbeknownst to you a stalker has been winding you up and grinding you down since the first year you were able to put your feet on the ground or first moved to a new country and it takes you 55 + years to ask who really had the influence over your life?
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People you thought were your parents friends or friends of the family who turned out to predators secretly preying on all you had it have as you try to come to terms with and manage possible areas of brain damage, spiritual and emotional strain and damage? Untold things and negative effects and other damages if let's just someone had not been allowed to continue to develop a very unhealthy potentionally dangerous very long term "interest" in somebody else.
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There are many cases where by a stalker just moves on. Thankfully!
But in some cases where a stalker moves on it is worth asking into what variant and has that variant been passed through the generation of that person's family, friends, and community?
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Faces in Crowd?
It's one thing to board ship
Take up on opportunity in far flung region to where you would normally be...But in the grander scheme thinking about what triggered this blog into being it occurred to me that an opportunity to live in new found land does not always change a person's behaviour. Whilst brutal experiences of what is socially not clinically but socially or politically  termed as racial violence came out of silence making it into media books need and film. Thinking of my own experience as a survivor of childhood incest rape. How many unheard rape experiences have there been and would that trigger one family to stalk another?
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The confusion is beyond painful believe you me. The possible level of power that may hold all the answers feels more than just burdensome! To never know which can mean generations of abusive relationships, enforced addictions and crime, whilst we are responsible for how we respond some account has to be taken when innocents are born into years duress due to things never been truthfully told and important information beung withheld or the importance of which never truly known? But at the end of the day the truth is stalkers are more than likely to be obsessed with control and for young couples back in the day and even today striving to get ahead and maintain mortgages and leave something valuable behind for their children with a stalker in tow means everything they are trying could possibly if allowed to be may be under some kind of attempted threat due to the illness of one that may have affected or controlled many others?
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Natural Flowism 
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A Freedom of Being! 
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iNbetween Fanaticism-Dry Stale List of insecurities and Course typical same old Questions! 

A lot of people are going out looking for love without clinical or  medical training then finding they are married to a person’s too far gone illness which they are ill prepared for and incapable of treating kindly, well, or compassionately!
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Vice Versa
Man sees woman unattached he starts weighing up his options instead of learning who she is? Where she is really at in her life? What and who she really wants out of life or in her life? What her true intentions are? Most important who is she genuinely and truthfully emotionally attached too and what she is emotionally attached too? And what new emotional attachments is she willing to accept?
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He still loves and adores an occasional girlfriend he met years ago, it’s over but they still speak everyday and her husband is cool with that? He reminisces all the time about their time together: is he homesick? Feeling very insecure and inadequate and underappreciated  with the person he is in an intimate relationship with now? Or is he just stirring his own shit? Because he derives a sick pleasure from it? Or is he displaying hidden reactions and feelings which betray the possibilities of him feeling he was manipulated-sleighted-belittled-pressured-taken for granted-bossed around-forced and coerced into a relationship and then marriage and then kids without his express permission?
What on earth crumbled his boundaries in the first place?
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Its tiresome my love But seriously I can’t be with you anymore! 
Mysteriously man just can’t leave! Just can't get out of the house/family home or property door, and can no longer live unhindered or unattached from who and what he no longer chooses, why?
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He can never leave!
He has no more choice!
Was he stalked into the marriage?
Or is man still under the influence of all his abusers behaviours?
Is he expected to be so conditioned that he is expected to accept such restrictive inhibiting behaviours as traditionally normal marriage behaviours?
Or is holding a person against their will supposed to be automatically acceptable when it comes to old time traditions or truths of marriage or just in relationships per say?
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What is the best way...for the GOOD of all concerned..to get someone to take responsibility for themselves and others?
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Is it to assume they automatically have  the capacity?
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Or is it each of our individual responsibility to learn our own capacity and capabilities for each scenario we choose or each scenario which we do not choose but that comes up for us anyway  in our lives. Is it each well persons responsibility to learn and grow the capacity and resources to be able to deal with all the possible consequences for  each moment we are alive?
Who is responsible for those not well enough? Where do we look to find out who does and who does have the capacity to take responsibility for themselves and others?
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Its a Sleepy Sunday I put on soft wool and eat cold ice cream yes cold ice cream...its a bit of a chuckle chuckle but it is because  I miss him!
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Something about life recently seems so one upping insensitive evil even competitive to the ugliest of extremes. Life just has not been feeling like our love any more, which always included everything. We always made space for everything about each other but it just felt gone. Yet I visualized us all day long his head buried in my chest . Envisaged him never wanting to.leave me nor I him. I hate to miss him. I like to live with trust knowing he’ll come back and we will continue but not from where we left off because of course those moments are gone !
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iNbetween Fantascism - For Freedom Sake! 

Dear Father God!
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I am so thankfully grateful and blessed to repent and surrender to the forgiveness purpose and power life is!
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In  all that infinite wisdom!
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Loose us this day (as I have so learnt to say)from the Angel of Death!
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Every bank and banker loose them from the Angel of Death!
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Every stock exchange and root of all monies loose it and them from the Angel of Death right now!
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Loose this globe called earth from the Angel of Death from the perceptions created everywhere loose us now from it!
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From every death created by the power of thought invested in us all that was unwittingly formed into strength and empowerment and imagery thought belief perception and manifestation that led every nation to believe their should be decay and therefore death right back before the time of the perception known as Christ and the back to the moment creation began where it was believed death should be? loose us loose me now! this day! this moment! this time! from it now!
This script!
This poem!
This prayer maybe deemed as arrogant! Stupid! Cruel! Unnecessary! to be heeded or  needed or not needed! but dear God by the brain power and mentality invested in me I surrender this version to thee and beyond with thee! That the thought form or perception be no more! I do not know what inspires me or thy script or why this came upon me this day? Relieve it! Allow it!as I so surrendered to it! In Jesus name Amen pon  it!
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I am so thankfully grateful and blessed to repent as I repent and surrender to the forgiveness power and purpose life is!
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Amen this day(as I have learnt from others to say) and for always if there is nothing else I can ever do in this life with my life, I surrender this poem as an Amen!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Amen!
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For Freedoms Sake!
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In the name of the Father Son and Holy Ghost and for however and with whatever anyone else will supplement those 3 with, amen!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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#LaviniaDeAyr 

inBetween Fanatiscism  

If there is nothing inside everything is created outside?
He tried to plead sanity off the backs of the emotionally disturbed physically abused financially   impoverished he alone created a lack of humanity...but..was he covering up something else like the lack of female success he creates soon after his presence has been felt...an undercurrents of absolute range and hatred not only for himself but everybody else? Or is he a possible victim or survivor of female incest? Rape? Or molestation or something else? Why does he continue to harbour  such jealous hate? Is he the silent witness to the murder only he knows he covertly and tacitly committed?
Hate it if you are lying all the time and you have got no truth to show at the end of it! But what and who does that  really mean? What does that rreally relate too?
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Obsessiveness about creating or having an image exists because nothing else is naturally  or internally present?
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You cannot?  or may be you can? take an illness out of a disorder dis-ease or brain damage and make it into authority or power simply because of its grip on what is of monetary value? Is that what for so many years so many have tried to do? Whilst deep in the need to let go of those with no ability to accurately relate relay translate or understand information correctly? Within that plight is that deeply damaging phrase too all to often too many of us have failed to understand  the impact and damage it has cause our lives! How many times have we unwittingly  shown someone no care or understanding by saying and asking: isn’t it obvious? Or I thought it would be obvious!
In the name of knowledge about brain health how dare any of us say or even ask?
If someone struggles with perception due to injury and yet that person leads the appearance of a normal life making choices unaware of the extent of they are perception are off balance! How dare we ask or presume what is obvious for those who cannot even perceive social cues? It would be so violent to the person for anyone to presume what is obvious to them or is not obvious to them, and what's more could never be obvious to them because quite natural they do not possess the brain function to perceive what is presumed to be generally obvious to all those who do not lack that particular brain function! Isn't hat more correct? Especially for those who suffer in life as a result of their injuries when it comes to having no grip on what is generally thought to be accurate perception least of all because theu appear to be coping with life just as successfully as everybody else!
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Until you have learnt each individuals ability to perceive learn or understand is on the same page as everybody else  nothing is obvious to anyone! Brain damage trauma injury forcible mental emotional spiritual and financial perceptions disturbances due to abuses all affect how an individual  can see something as obvious or not!
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I need to address this/ you done mash up my life/ distracted me from my loved ones/ destroyed my reputation so i don’t stand a chance/ you cost me so much and then you can’t ever pay it back it's not that they don't  know how you feel....they are doing things to deliberately make you feel things you do not want to feel!

...its just hard for them to believe you've been had
Not by a lover
But trapped within the years of a conniving stalker with a ton of supporters no one else is willing to perceive or see!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Fanaticism Passage 27 

Cover...
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The world has come on a bit since the beginning of inventions
They invented the pound which will have absolutely no value if produced in high quanity which will allow just about anybody to live abundantly if printed made easy?!
Seriously!
Are you gonna tell no one has caught on to the biggest sadistic murderous trick known to man?
Money
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Of all the things the world has invented you gonna tell all this time no one can come up with a Monterey  system that will not devalue due to quantity or scale?
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In this whole amount of time with people walking and running fast fast with brief case busy busy in the city not starting only speaking the middle
"If we print print like that the value of currency will go down
Instead of looking at how much time that has gone by creating lack like fact!!
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Its the same vexations I am having with my own inner self in my own personal worls whilst deep in thankfulness and gratitude know that without any doubt but as well this is not just me its on the mind of many!
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Fucking eeking and peetering it out like funking bird fucking food and the forest is still fricking full of it
Everybody's is talking in the middle the currency value is gonna go down well that was back then how well healed was anybody back then?
You would fink if it got fucking started as what it is it can change from what it is I can't understand how that is not some first flip?
It seems like such an ignigma to me
That those with a much quicker and clearer brain processing and mind function just wouldn't see divide and conquer from devalue to appreciating values?
Of this is not comprehensive cooperate fact or knowledge 
Its part of a simple poetry book
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All the things which has been invented up until now that has changed all our lives and yet still...
...something feels like it has snapped and it can so easy-ish to change
Not that creating a financial construction or infrastructure is easy not that I would know
But what has become of money  does not have to be so brain and soul destroying either.
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Boy, I don't know what has come over me but this has been with me for some time. 
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Since seeing certain boundaries just thrown down toward my life
Things on a personal level I did not mean to allow happen but had no strength to do anything else or allow certain individuals to get away with violations against me which should have been followed up and through a correct system. If you do stop serial sex offenders they become more angry and possibly even more subtle but it never just ends there unfortunately 
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Its strength and behaviour patterns which get all tied up 
And now its mens rea
And maybe as well that it may also be that brunette man on the tube train all those years ago as I was going up down and around town getting to work who sat with a large baggy coat feathered neck length hair blatantly holding a brand new pack of what looked like minted money sat across from me looking focused but daze was he trying to show me something so obvious about what world change is?
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I dare you!
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I dare you to see flip it change it and stop talking about what isn't as if is!
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Just for being a Poet of sorts theres back lash misinterpretation, the how dare she! Possessiveness's over expression...but hey!
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