METHODS OF VIOLATION

As before MENTIONED whilst I speak about being stalked as though it is only me. I am not the only one experiencing it. Never have been. But, as a result of being "front of house" so to speak which can refer to being in position where due to the necessity of needing to work to put food on the table and trying to pay your bills you end up in a job or position that makes you more visible to other people than they are to you!

Anonymous telephone stalkers can be just as harrowing experience as being physically deliberately followed down the road by the same or the appearance of different people year in year out. 

TELEPHONE STALKERS RARELY REMAIN AS JUST THAT.

In the early 1990s when we as a lone parent family finally got to move on with our lives after what turned into a full blown onslaught of a stalkers campaign after a very brief dating type relationship I had went badly wrong whilst living as a Young Mother in Notting Hill Gate area of West London from 1985 to 1995. 

Moving back to SE11. It took a while for me to gain confidence in schooling, and getting back into work. Once getting back on my feet the large brick style mobile phones were invented. I could barely ever really afford anything but I made sure I bought on for my daughter. Only along with the phone game a very gruff and rough speaking not so anonymous telephone stalker with a deep Scottish Accent. 

Fast forward to 2014, I have moved yet again under the same set of circumstances and no doubt subjects within more than one concern about this anonymous telephone stalker first encountered when I bought my daughter her first mobile phone. I am again deeply suspicious to move away from an areas where you have been stalked is possibly only one layer off to help you reset your brain and hopefully your life in a new area. I can begin to explain how important it can be to make it incredibly easy for people to upticks and move if they are continually trailed by people who have ongoing unfixable need to stalker others. I think stalking as a term is possibly to widely used in possibly jokingly, and possibly an area to the public outside of medical fields that still needs to be clearly identified for the genuine danger it really is, as well the dangers it continues to pose even in its infancy.

Again, as a lone parent family we have again tried to move on. Despite the hell experiencing stalking together has done to us as individuals. As strong as we continue to work to be as individuals and as a family unit. I am particular suspicious that this particular has already set up home where I have moved too. Again, a pattern has continued I have moved, am out of work. Again, I trying to gain confidence now it is not just schooling but at another stage of being an empty nester, and need to get back into work. By now I have invested in training, and have a profession, and I think a very good one at that. 

Fast forward to Crimbo 2022

Indirect Culprits depicts what is almost a continuation of a similar pattern which came about seemingly under different circumstances.

However, getting myself out to work and accepting ready works was not at all as innocent or as well meaning as it seemed at all.

All of sudden just before Christmas bla...bla...a wrong delivery is sent to me, and of course yes it is seeming a 90s comeback!

I remember being in Oxford Circus area some years ago probably, sometime around 2006/7 needing an upgrade. At that time I would go into a shop and do it. However, this time it feel really awkward, and off. Just wrong. Out of Order but I couldn't think why at the time on the spot because I was experiencing anxiety, I was on my own, I was a middle age woman by then with all the problems that go along with that. But, again in hindsight I did again, become worried that a telephone stalker never remained as that. 

 I gave birth to an innocent child who has now like all our children have grown up to be affected by the same shit we wanted to avoid them going through!

AS BAD AS THEY MAYBE TODO I AM GOING TO GET A BIT CREATIVE HERE...

But, what if the stalkers that stalked my daughter on the phone has not let go has gotten to the stage that obsessed by being a telephone stalker is able to now somehow get around to delivering my address a phone seeming by mistake if true? which may have a long life battery which could some how allow the phone to be constantly recording like a bug?  Because whilst I have moved house numerous times, and have tried my best to move on, think you are doing the kindly, or neighbourly think but it turns out to be possibly taking I that parcel maybe another part of someone's very creative violating technique because they just are deluded and as result convinced they need to know where you are, what you are doing, what you are saying etc? But there again suppose your stalker is someone rich, famed or infamous? and can afford to pull a few strings in a way to get things to you which maybe in their mind is kindly but because of the years you have both suffered nothing about it feels kind. Why would someone who wants to give you something to be kind or helpful need such anonymity even if famed? but, sadly if somebody being stalked can also become deluded by who is stalking them amongst all the ducking and diving a stalker maybe doing especially if only relatively briefly known to the person they are stalking. Whether via growing up together, at school, church, or somewhere else. The pressure some people feel in life about what is deemed as successful in life, or seeing someone who has to use or hone multiple skills to be able to at time barely make an income, or to create something of value which can go on to at a chance become something which can be exchanged for hopefully a monetary value that may just allow you to possibly have something like a pension fund. Can lead to one individual who maybe have been abuse or badly treated, or may have a torturing type of personality disorder which seems to give them a peek out of it which lets them realise well someone else doing more than I can do, and that leaves them in destruction mode, with lots of feelings of injustice and unfairness toward them least of all  because they have never been taught, or made to understand why their brain has not made them as happy, as others peoples brains have made them. 

It feels like a misnomer

However, I continue to pray for all our safety, and that we all however we can begin to understand that I which ever capacity we are in, we can aim for change instead of carrying on the same. Change may not be glamorous or big budget. But, once we understand it...change that is...we might always understand there is something we can do for ourselves if our own brain does not appear to creating the type of gains we have been hoping it would!

Big, thanks to my nearest and dearest and to my family.

It is by no means an easy task to speak up about, or speak out against abuses within society as a whole let alone the struggle we all face within our own family. It is a responsibility which is Never taken lightly at all, and most of all can feel incredibly unnatural to have to take the risk to do so as to at that there may only be the very slightest possibility of somebody being better justly treated, but it is a must do so no abuse can continue in any form.

My healing to get that point of strength has taken me so long, and I still do not feel completely able to cope with any of it! 

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