I lived with ADD my whole life I just didn't know it was exactly that!

I knew I had sustained neurological damage?delays? from violence and suffocation but I was young not fully educated and incredibly niave! I thought fashion and image could change and heal me and right all my wrongs!

My Lack is or was my notice I have written recently but not necessarily! Sometimes due to challenges it is not possible to even perceive what you lack even though you may need too or your life would be better if only you knew what would better it and make you better brighter and much easier to get on with as a person? I literally used to think if i could just buy a particular pair of glasses frame. Wear a certain style of clothes that that will heal me and solve the problems I was having. I lived feeling shredded and so self-conscious and aware that i was living with a brain which felt like it was misfiring commands to an unhealed brain!

How wrong was I to believe that changing my appearance would heal years of challenges associated with types of ADD?

If only we can fix the outside the rest will force a change  -  How many stalking events has that  caused?

Example: this family, or I, as individual will be better off and more successful if only i could couple up or pursue a life or success by becoming attached to that calm successful family or person all we need to do is get to them to have what they have and be like they are...how many times has that type of falsehood triggered one person or a group if people to stalk others?

Is that as a trigger true or false? 

A persons vision is misdirected or thwarted due to what?

A perception disorder?

Via brain injury or damage or by personal attack by a very dark and abusive narcissist/sadist/mentalist or trickster?

It becomes almost impossible to save someone from pain are you beung inconsiderate and thoughtless to give that person the space they need to figure things out?

But who would recognise what that dynamic is exactly? Does someone/people who pull away from other people to concentrate on a relationship always signify a red flag?

What types of abuse requires isolation?

 

And last of all what kind of secruity measures will require an exact look-a-like and body double to do a split second swap that nobody must ever find out about?

I have never like magic and trickery even though I have been aware of such shows for entertainment which is where I take it and leave but I have been wondering what is lacking? Failing? Or going on when that is used as a means of getting through life especially high levels of lying and trickery as relationships to the point nothing else but that is normal?

Yep...his little ginger snapper shows up on a wall in the hanger! 25/08/2020 pm!