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Ah Wa Yah Stalking me Fah? Sounds of the Book Shop! 

{What are you Stalking me for? is the Question!}

This is my first ever single release which captures the inner turmoil of what it is like to be stalked, and how that can connect back to experiences in childhood, and  to how restrictive that can be on a moment to moment basis!  

Musically it was quite a complicated blend, for me at least.

It was all improv as per usual straight from my heart and soul, no messing around pure truth and true expression of what I felt whilst creating using many different accents during the process of opening up and free flowing with different levels of spoken word dialogues!  

As a tune I managed to keep my up tempo style beat and harmonies all of  which I created with Garage Band using plug- ins and  vocal effects.

I must admit I felt very raw and experienced a higher level of  sensitivity during the creation of this track.

It took up a lot of energy but has left me with much more confidence as result, for which I am internally grateful!

I truly genuinely hope this single promotes some kind of understanding for anyone who has experienced being stalked, and anyone who is currently experiencing trespass and intrusion as well as being stalked, or bullied!

Bullying and Stalking can create untold damage in a persons life which unfortunately can last a life-time without appropriate attention, treatment, care, and most of all informed protection.

I didn't include this paragraph in my original upload of the single. But, I experienced bullying alongside other abuses as a child during the periods when I was actually allowed to attend school. Which I found deeply challenging at every age from start to finish.

During my early years at school to stop myself from being bullied I remember literally having to force myself to stand up for myself which eventually left me with the experience of feeling like a bully myself and bullying back.  Once I figured out that I had to protect myself which included being deemed as annoying during that process because in truth my behaviours where as I was scrambling to come to grips with the truth before I left school and calmed down only to a certain degree!

It all felt so inevitable to me literally as abuses left me feeling so uncomfortable in my own skin. As I grew older and the experiences continued I disliked returning home after school, and dreaded leaving home to go to school... and even now having just included this paragraph it confirms to me that despite trying to change the patterns in my life and my behaviour I still haven't changed enough and I am now 50+!

Neither experience is easy to have to negotiate at all as an adult, teenager, pre-teen or as a child or younger!

Regardless, of who you are in society. 

Being stalked, or being bullied in anyway is a very, very expensive set of experiences and abuses to be targeted by.

Abuses in general are incredibly expensive one way or the other!

Whether you are left picking up the pieces after an abuser, or tasked with finding effective treatment for those who abuse. None of it, which ever way you look at it is cheap!

But Dear I say to anyone who feels the struggle of what a stalker surrounding your life  does please just try and hang in there, and don't give up!

I understand it takes a lot more than some stranger trying to be encouraging. Especially, if you are at the stage where you are finding it impossible to gather evidence on what is happening or has happened to you!

 Even though I may not be in a position too given  all my experiences and challenges . I still dare to encourage those affected by the experience of being stalked to never give up! 

 

Survive and find a way to find your strength!

Even if you do not want to publically share your experiences. It is not advisably for everybody.

 It may well be worth remembering writing your experiences out every day, or even if you cannot write try and just draw shapes or make lines, anything for just a  couple of minutes everyday just to help your brain change your experience and help you become an even stronger survivor, if you are not already!

Every time you know that stalker or bully is going to bother do what will keep you aware calm SAFE and enable you to find any strength you might need to find the clarity to get the help you need!

Just do everything for yourself that will help you pour good health back into your life your hopes your dreams your goals!   

Though we experience things individually and whilst we may feel all alone, we are not alone.

It is not impossible to survive!

It is worth believing in yourself always!

As human beings we are worth it!

I hope you enjoy my Music and most of all understand my work, which is to make some kind of contribution toward providing  Self - Healing Creative Content for Research Purposes, and also to Promote understanding about all the different type of survivors of Stalking and very early childhood abuses!

Take Care!

Stay Safe!

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Stay Strong and don't give up on your dreams such is the advice I live by and give to myself, and anyone to else!

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Many Thanks

Lavinia 

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I am so Thankfully Grateful and Blessed to Repent and Surrender to the Forgiveness Power and Purpose Life is!

(I edit on the go, which means whilst I do my best NOT to write with mistakes at times it can take a while for me to notice where they are. I can only apologise)

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